So today I was thinking a lot about myself. Selfish as that sounds, I always have this thought floating in the back of my head all day everyday and I stress and worry about it; and this makes me believe I’m not the only one. Genuinely, I know I shouldn’t worry about this as much as I do but I can’t stop it without some positive feedback from others. This thought is my weight. The number that sets all numbers aside, especially as a woman (or so we are socially told). I worked very hard to lose close to 20 lbs in the 3 months of summer alone, but now that we are getting back into the colder seasons I’m gaining some weight and I am truly terrified that I will gain more. I used to gain weight in massive fluctuations when I was in college and this is my first year at home since graduation and I’m so very nervous history will repeat itself. I try to eat good but my appetite has since grown. Also, I try to workout everyday for at least 45 minutes but even just this week I’ve skipped two days. I feel that even with all this body positive sensations in the media and such it is still a problem for many people. My loved ones all believe I look fine but I feel like I’m not. Some say I look the same as my smallest, others say I look thinner, but myself and the scale don’t agree at all.
So, here I am wondering is there anyway to get out of this funk? I’m finding more and more that staying positive about myself helps a lot. I’ve been growing to accept the body changes I have, as well as how I can keep my body health so even if I gain weight I’ll come to terms with being healthy even if I’m a bit heavier. Looking in the mirror and telling myself I am fine helps too. Verbalizing body positive thoughts help so much its almost ridiculous. Drinking lots of water and listening to my bodies tired and active wants are amazing. Also, my support group has helped but me telling them what is going on with me is what is key because telling people all the time “I feel fat” “am I okay?” can get annoying without a proper explanation. So if you explain your insecurities and both parties are aware of the issue they can actively help one another out without so much unnecessary stress adding to the relationship. One last thing helps me a lot, going and buying some extra all natural beauty supplies that help boost my confidence. Such as, I went to LUSH this past week and bought some stuff for my hair to help its curls and a face scrub to help my acne. These two things alone have helped me just this week alone accept my body (as much as possible) as is, and its a day-by-day process but its possible and I know it.
Comment some of your stories and or helpful advice that helped you or a loved one or friend to keep positive about self-body image. I can’t wait to hear!
Until next time, take care!