So yesterday afternoon I was at a bit of a breaking point. As I put in my random thought post, I miss my friends. I am happy where I am at and with all the good things I am doing but I feel lonely. I’m sure some of you readers have felt the way too. That even though you are at and in a good place of your life the struggles of it make you travel alone, even when there are bodies everywhere around you. I have been feeling like all I do is work, and I am not complaining about my job. I am Subbing for a High School as I’ve said in the past and some days are fun, but most days aren’t and its tough when you get a lot of social interaction but not by people at the same place as you, nor are in your realm of friends. It is hard also when I come home I am in an empty house cause my roommate works a lot as well and so for 5 hours of the day I am totally alone in my house it feels like. Then when I go to my other jobs I have to work around people but its just like in the school, focus on work not your personal life and enjoyment. By the time I get home or to my Boyfriends I am so beat I just need sleep. I really haven’t been able to interact with any of my friends and my boyfriend and I may see each other a lot our interactions are limited to sleeping and sitting next to one another quietly as we both reel down from the day’s bullshit. So he and I shared the same view yesterday of how lonely Adulting feels. People grow apart, are going on their own paths and it feels like even though you are on your own life path yourself, it’s becoming a struggle of endurance of loneliness. There really is no solution just the knowledge that it will get better in time, and to truly appreciate the time you get with loved ones.
Have any of you felt this way? Care to share your opinion or story? Leave it in the comments below I would really enjoy reading them.
Also, to any readers, how do you feel if I made these more like a podcast? Does that sound more appealing and fun? Let me know. I would love feedback.
Until next time,