I am sorry for the delay on posts I have been very busy! I have a few things to tell you and as you can see my photo is one of my Cosplay that I did for Castle Point Anime Convention.
First comes first, unless we are in some weird alternate dimension like in Rick and Morty (I’ll let you know if I find any schrodinger cats flying around), and that means talking about my thought of the day. I am going back to the hearing doctor in the comping week and in the time I was given before it I had a hearing test. The audiologist informed me my hearing in my one ear (which has a hearing aid) is the same, while the hearing in my right (which was normal and had no hearing aid) is now at the level of my left (the one with the aid). He also informed me that my nerve is damaged, and that I should consult my ENT for a diagnosis. SO here I am waiting around for the appointment date to show up and it got me thinking, in this restless free time, what does this potentially mean for me. Now I refuse to google things until after I see the doctor because I don’t want to trigger my anxiety and think things are worse than they actually are. That does not mean my mind isn’t already making it worse running rampant like it is.
I am very nervous that this could mean the start of my hearing degenerating. I am hoping that I can do well with another hearing aid and see where I am at after that, but here is another fun problem. Did you know hearing aids and things that would improve a persons ability is not covered under most (if not all) insurance providers? That means you must pay out of pocket or go without. We all understand that this is common place for insurance companies, because we’ve seen that same sincere with eye glasses and contacts. Here is the catch, glasses may be 200$ upfront, hearing aids cost around 3,000$. That is a tiny computer hanging in and around you ear and that means big money. The makes it EXTREMELY difficult for people to obtain the things the may need to function regularly. i have one hearing aid and that was going to cost me at least 2,000$ at the doctors office, but I was lucky and have a Costco around me and they sold me one for 1,400$ which is a great difference. This gave me a huge realization. How many people out there have something they are aware is wrong with them, and can’t afford to fix it? That thought always revolved around my head but it became even more apparent as I saw how hard it was for myself. As bad and as selfish as that sounds, I never could fully understand it until I was in it. This goes to say many others are the same as me, aware of hardships of others but can’t truly understand or grasp it until in it themselves or watch a loved one deal with it. If I don’t have my aids, I won’t hear people talking or walking around me, and I rely on my other senses. It is crazy to go from a completely hearing person to not at such a young age. It really is a foundation shaker. Try to understand, readers, that people out their when you get annoyed at them for saying ‘what’ too many times in conversation may be struggling with loss of hearing, or someone who trips over your foot walking by may be blind or losing sight. Things are much more in-depth than what is just shown on the surface and that is something we all forget when life gets in the way. Allow yourself to remember your humanity more often, then you may find it easier to let go and see things aren’t always what they may seem. Humility is my thought of the day and it is something I am going to try to practice more often.
Next I will post to here my CPAC Costume. This adventure was really great! I got to spend the day with my boyfriend, see many of my good friends from college, and get my photo taken for my cosplay. I created the mask myself, and had to put together the clothing. Many things were a bit of an issue, the biggest being how hot it was outside. Trust me a wig plus a full face mask outdoors on an 80+ degree day isn’t easy. The second issue was parking, and third it was far away, but! None the less we had an amazing time! We even got to run into one of our old friends from the festivals back in the summer time! I really enjoyed the fact that no matter where I go I will still see people from my past adventures. I was very proud of my costume, and was able to experience a Con in a different form. This is an experience I won’t ever forget and I will definitely do again in cosplay. Maybe me and my boyfriend will do one together next time!
Until Next time,