So my shoulder struggles never seem to stop. Now my Left one is hurt in some way and I have to go get it looked at. I’m not sure how I keep doing this, but my father states it’s because I am too fragile. He told me I need to realize I am not as built tough as I think or imagine myself to be. As this was harsh to hear, its something that got me thinking.
After all the trials in my life, I do try to do it all and be it all by myself. I catch my boyfriend telling me I am not wonder woman all the time, even before the recent movie. I believe this is something I believe I need to be all the time. It protects me from the harshness of the world, but also protects me from the world. I used to need an extra barrier to keep me from getting hurt by anyone, which at the time worked very well, but old habits die very, very hard. This created a part of my personality that stuck and made it hard sometimes to let go of tasks and get help. I wonder how many of you out there developed the same structure of protection as I have. Just know that although its hard to break, you need to realize your limits physically and emotionally. Allow yourself to find those people you’ll allow yourself to trust and be able to rely on because if you don’t, your body will give out before your mental state will. It hurts to always put too much weight on your shoulders, literally and metaphorically. I know how hard it is, but trust me its better than the alternative of being lonely or in pain the rest of your life. You are worth having a reliable person and someone you trust. This is just my thought of the day, but it rings true for my life I hope you see the truth in this too.
Until net Time,